Heaven or hell
Is there such a thing
Or just a tall tale
That im believing
Truth or lies
I just don’t know
Motivation dies
I want to let go
I seek to find
But still no answer
If life’s divine
Or just earths cancer
The world’s desires
They seem to be
What life requires
To be set free
Give up give in
Do what u want
No such thing as sin
Or a devil to haunt
The world will say
And put in your mind
Live for today
Leave the past behind
Others have said
Do what’s right
Cause once you’re dead
That’s the end of the fight
And those in sin
Are on a slippery slope
They have died within
And have lost all hope
So praise the lord
It’s the only way
You can’t afford
In the end you’ll pay
So now the battle
Between right and wrong
Are we just cattle
Being pushed along
Or is there hope
For something more
Or just the end of the rope
At the casket door
So before I die
I must make a choice
So this is my cry
To hear your voice
So lord if your there
Please show me the way
Please answer my prayer
That I pray today
Why am I here
Where will I go
Why do I fear
What I don’t know
Ryan Davis
That is a poem I wrote shortly before the journal pages talked about below.
About 2 months ago I was downstairs in the basement going through some papers and I came across 5 old journal pages that I had ripped out of, what is now, my mission journal. I wrote them about 3 years ago and what was said in them hit me pretty hard. In those journal entries I talked about how I honestly didn’t know if God even existed or whether or not Christ is really our savior. I said that I wanted to know if the Book of Mormon was really true. I finally after many years of being away from the church wanted to know for myself if there was any merit to the teachings that I had been raised with. It was at that time I decided that I was going to put it all to the test and that I was going to do all that was necessary to get that answer. I ended that journal entry as a prayer and cry for help to a God that at that time I wasn’t even sure existed. After having read that I looked up and I was in a white shirt and tie wearing a name tag that not only says Elder Davis but boldly bears the name of Christ. Very different from my feelings 3 years previous I couldn’t believe that I, Ryan Davis, am now a missionary that is out sharing with the world what I now know to be true. That alone is a miracle. The thought came to mind look how far you have come. It was a powerful witness and realization of the power that our saviors sacrifice and atonement has to bring about change within our hearts.
Today tomorrow and for the rest of my life I will boldly stand as a witness of the reality of God and our Savior Jesus Christ. I know that there is a prophet that leads and guides us each day. I know for myself through my own experiences that both the Bible and the Book of Mormon are indeed the word of God. That no matter where we are in life they can bring about a change within you that you may have thought impossible or didn’t know existed. I am proud to bear the name of Christ for these two years as a missionary as well as for the rest of my life. If it wasn’t for the Gospel of Jesus Christ my life would still be as hollow and meaningless as it was 3 years ago. Because of Christ we have purpose, because of Christ we have potential, because of Christ we have hope, because of Christ I have joy, because of Christ my life has changed and it has changed in ways I never thought possible. He truly does make the impossible become possible. I know this to be true with all of my heart and so can you…
Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find, knock and it shall be opened unto you, pray he is there, speak he is listening. Without a doubt he has answered mine and he will answer yours as well.
I am so grateful to be out here testifying of the truths that have changed my life.
